Posted by: rhenderson8110 | July 8, 2013

Surrender & Follow

So it’s hot, humid, and rainy today AND Alex is taking his motorcycle safety class from 5:30-9:30 Monday-Thursday for 2 weeks starting today AND I’m using the rain as a good excuse to avoid going running… So I thought I’d sit. Sit and write. With coffee and maple blueberry crisp by my side. What can go wrong, right? Days like today- where distractions are few and the quiet is abounding- are the days for soul searching. So I was thinking, ‘What have I done recently for my soul, to renew my purpose, to sharpen my vision, to relax my schedule enough to remember what’s truly important. Immediately I thought: The move. I know you’re all dying to know why we traded in our beautiful 2200 sq. foot home for a pretty-average little apartment. So here it is. 🙂

On a Saturday in January God’s hand was working mightily in our little lives. We were at church, I was chatting away with my Aunt about how Americans have become addicted to affluence and about how so many people ‘need’ both incomes and ‘can’t afford’ to have children, yatta yatta yatta. Little did I know Alex was listening in. We got in the car to drive home and it was too quiet- if you know Alex, you’d understand given his upbeat, outgoing, lively nature. And then he says, ‘You know how you were talking about all those people addicted to living on 2 incomes’… Mhm… ‘Well, is that us?’ Insert long pause here. ‘Yes.’ I answered with a sheepish smile. So once we got that out of the way all we could do was talk. Talk and talk and talk. About where we were, about where we wanted to go, about jobs, about our vision, about children, about what God wants of us, and about sacrifice. We talked the 45 minute ride home from church and we sat in our garage for another 2 hours and we talked. Mind you it was January- so we froze and talked but we just couldn’t stop.  So we decided that what we really wanted was for me to stay home for our future children and we couldn’t afford to do that in the house we were in. Finally Alex said, ‘But you love this house, would you really move now?’ And I looked right at him and said, ‘Tomorrow, sweetheart.’

That was one of my favorite moments in our marriage. Those 2 hours in the garage that ended in a promise to be purposeful about where we were headed so we could accomplish what God wanted of us. We felt so powerful. And radical. Maybe a little nervous laughter escaped here and there. But most of all we felt united. It is a wonderful thing to be united in a vision together with your spouse.

So, that was all well and good- but there were a LOT of logistics to be figured out. After all we JUST moved into this brand new house built just for us in September. We decided to sleep on it, pray about it and see how we felt the next day. We both went to bed secretly wondering if we were going to feel differently tomorrow. And we both woke up even more excited about downsizing than the night before. So we called a realtor. And then we called another one. And we put one foot in front of the other- one prayer after another. We put the house up for sale in mid-April and we accepted an offer within 2 1/2 weeks. We closed on May 31st.

Throughout the entire process we kept looking at each other and saying, ‘I can’t believe this is working out so well! What is happening?!’ Sometimes we jumped up and down in excitement; other times we caught each other’s eyes across the moving boxes and they filled up with tears of gratitude. It was like every time we had to take another step we just prayed, a door opened and we walked through it. Just following along as He led. The prayer we kept praying was, ‘Lord, we want to do what You want us to do. We think you are leading us to downsize so that our future children can have 1 parent stay at home and so we can have a slower pace of life to spend more time with You and with each other. Please take us where You want to take us and help us to make wise decisions with the money and assets You have blessed us with.’ And He delivered. As He always does. That season of life was one of the best faith-builders for each of us we have ever experienced. To take our hands off the wheel, surrender the course of our life to Him, and watch Him guide and direct us so gently and blessedly where He wanted us to be… it was awesome. I’m still on a spiritual high and I think I will be for some time.

Surrender and Follow

There is SO much more to say about the experience that I can hardly organize my thoughts about it. There are a million lessons we have learned and are learning still. But for today I want to leave you with this one piece of encouragement. Let go and let God. Believe that He will bring you to where you need to be in life. Believe that He will bring you a godly spouse. Believe that He will bless you with children when it is time. Believe that He will carry you through school, work, big decisions and terrible times. Believe. Because I promise you that He delivers, every time! Oh, and by the way, we feel ‘richer’ than we ever have before- following where God leads you will do that, every time!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.

Proverbs 3:5-6 

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